I want to write this from the bottom of my heart to all people that may have come into my life for a reason or a season at a time. I know that I may not be the easiest person to understand or work with yet to the ones that are still around, thank you. As you are aware and may know me by now, sometimes for me as a person, it has been hard for me to find the right people to open up to, and yet despite it all of the past experiences and situations and all that I’ve faced that I need to remember once in a while to let my guard or walls down to give people the chance to show me that they’re not out to get me but to try and assist me in any way possible.
I know that I don’t say it enough in the way of my words and actions yet I am humbled and forever grateful to have the ones that have stood by me through all the trials and tribulations that I’ve been through right now as well as in the past. While we go through these trials and tribulations, I’ve learned that these wills show us who will be there for us through this with their true colors.
I want to say to all the people that have seen me fail and fall on my knees as I stumble upon some situations and circumstances that you lifted me up and walked by me and guide me through it all. I want to thank you all that has been there for me either for my legs when I am not able to walk some days as well as also for my arms when I seem not to be able to carry anything.
For even when I feel that I am weak or at my lowest point you allow me to lean on you for some strength and inner courage when I feel so convinced that I feel that others are out there to attack me in any way that you act as my sword and shield when it arises.
Thank you to the ones that have been with me through and through of trying to keep me stable and giving me some form of hope and foundation to stand on when I fall.
When I am sometimes tired and clumsy along with being tired, you’re there by me to help me back up again and push me forward to get tasks done.
To the people that have been in my circle or have known me that has been telling me it’s okay to feel too much when you guys know me for being the sensitive and empathetic one around. Thank you. To the people that have been telling me on my bad days that it’s okay to not feel okay and to feel that I’ve been defeated in any way shape or form that I should either come back to what may have not been completed etc. Again, thank you. Thank you for also understanding me as a person behind my faults, flaws, and imperfections along with the mask hidden with my diagnosis. Thank you for also understanding me as a person who has a sensitive heart and never telling me to harden or to forever change me for who and what I am as a person and for accepting me for who and what I am as a person. You let me be able to be me and be able to express myself as a person to be able to love freely and openly. You remind me on a daily to never try and be someone else or to try and fit in a box full of expectations etc. We know that sometimes when the box is full, that it will be bound to split or even the contents fall out.
On my messiest of days, when I don’t feel like myself, you still care!
To all the people that know me by now with my voice that has been silenced for too long and now starting to try and have the courage to speak out and just to talk to everyday people like you, thank you. To the people also who know me for who and what I am – EXACTLY who and what I am and have the courage to still stick around and support me through and through, thank you. Thank you for seeing any cracks or bruises and by choice you choose to stay. Thank you for allowing me to express myself and knowing that I am not the person I pretend to be and loving my roots and everything else about me. You’ve seen me at my worst and darkest hours and moments along with sometimes when I wear my mask then begins to drop or fall off and the real me begins to show or shine out. And, whenever that happens you tell me I was and I am still worth everything in this world. You tell me that I am loved, cared for, and am needed to do my tasks to fulfill my purpose, goals, dreams and so much more. You tell me that no matter what I shouldn’t be afraid to shine my light and greatness on others. You tell me nothing has changed and shouldn’t have to be changed to suit others around me who want to change me for the wrong reasons etc.
To the people who love me for me even when I am vulnerable or when I’m not lovable. thank you.
Thank you all for the ones that have been there for me to show me the meaning of friendship, love, guidance, and affection. To me, you are good in this world, and to also able to shine your light and greatness to others. You also have a plan and a purpose in life and I pray and hope that you’ll find it. You’re the ones that have helped me to see the good in me when I can’t seem to find it myself.
